Frustrated

Well, I ended up not being able to get to this last night. I was driving home from school last night when the temperature gauge started climbing and before I knew it, my car was overheated. I made it to our church house and when I opened the hood of my car, radiator fluid was spraying everywhere. Oh the joys of the car I loathe.

Anyway, I am sad that I won't be able to make it to Bootcamp today. I seriously need to be there. My heart is truly broken. I wish that there was some way to pay for a new car, but we can not afford the monthly payments. It sucks.

As for yesterday, Bootcamp was great. I quite enjoyed the workout. It was hard, but I really felt like I did a good job. Instructor Thomas has a way of making our conversations awkward and hilarious. I seriously love him!! I may now know more about him than I ever wanted to know, but that's the way he is.

So today I get to figure out how to fix my car yet again, with no money and no hope to see the light at the end of the tunnel of car problems and medical bills, but hey, that's life. So I'm just going to figure it out and hope for the best because that is what we have to do to survive.

Have a great day!!

A dream of blues

Tough workout!

I experienced being yelled at by two instructors tonight AND instructor Thomas threw his hat at me!! Better than his boot I guess. That was one of the hardest workouts I've done at Bootcamp so far. It was tough, but I didn't die. I feel awesome for finishing and I learned something today that I didn't know. If I would have known that bending over when out of breath was not a good thing, I wouldn't be doing it. So thank you Instructor Paul for teaching me that. Now I know, I will do my best to avoid doing that.

It was fun to work out with some awesome people. It was nice to meet everyone and know that no matter what group you work out in, we are all family. I can't wait to get back to 0800 tomorrow though! Missed you all this morning!!

Well, my bed is calling my name. Sorry for the short post, goodnight!!!!

Ten Years ago

This morning was a very emotional and hard morning. I have been stuck at 286 for several days and I had hoped to make it to 283 today. Today I scraped by and made it. I was sure nervous. I was 283 the day I found out I was pregnant with my son. I found out on Labor day weekend of 2003. Guess what this weekend is! That's right, Labor day weekend. Coincidence?? Probably, but it makes for a good story, so I am going to use it. ;) Ten years ago was the last time I was this weight.

I am thoroughly amazed at how fast things have changed in my life. I am in week 8 of boot camp and I have lost 33 pounds, a tshirt size, a pants size, and the passenger side seat belt is loose and I don't have to squeeze into it anymore...which means my husband can drive more now!! Woot Woot!!

Seriously though, I am stronger, I am happier, and I have made some great new friends and family. I can honestly say I have higher self esteem and I just feel so much better over all. As for my knee, yes it hurts, but it is getting better. I have been able to increase my speed a little on the treadmill, not a lot, but it will get there.

I am training for a 5K at the end of September. I hadn't been out and running outside yet, but this weekend when I was worried about the numbers, I ventured out to do just that. I was fairly surprised at how well I did this weekend. I remember about 2 months ago when I was walking with my friends every morning, I was always out of breath and I didn't really LOVE doing it, but I did it because I needed to. I was able to run the same distance I walked with my friends and I felt great. I went even further last night and did 2 extra laps! I am getting better. I am not a fast runner, by all means, but I am trying. I hope to get enough endurance to make it through the full 5K without passing out. ;)

I am loving exercising and I feel so much stronger. I am getting there. I appreciate all of your support and your help. I am learning so much. I would not have the strength to do it if I didn't have all of you.

A dream of blues (PT Miller)

Sooooo sore!

Today I woke up and I felt it! I forgot how much it hurts to wear that vest. I think I have hit a plateau and I'm hoping to make three pounds lost by Monday, but my confidence that it will happen is not good. I can't see a way that it will happen. I will go do some more exercising this weekend and see if that helps. I really don't want to wear that vest again, especially since I just voluntarily did it.

I don't like feeling like I am not going to succeed and it terrifies me. I am not looking forward to Monday at all. I have kept to the diet and have done really well. Maybe I'm not getting enough water, maybe I need to increase my cardio. I don't now, I just know that it is frustrating.

I ran a lot further today. It helped that instructor Stone was back there pushing me. I didn't do as well on the mountain, my knee was killing me. Still I was dripping with sweat by the time I was finished. Maybe I just need to do that a few times a week!

My determination is still there, just feeling a bit down about it today.

Hope you all have a fantastic weekend!

A dream of blues

30 lb. vest!!

Holy cow!! What a day!

Today at Bootcamp we wore the 30 lb. vests. Holy crap that was hard. I'm pretty sure a few swear words came out of my mouth today. (I know, shame on me) How I ever did that every day of my life is beyond my comprehension. I was out of breath very easy and everything just hurt. All through the workout I kept saying, how did I ever do this!? I'm sure as more weight comes off I will be able to better appreciate what I've already done. Oh, and guess what!? He put the vest on me and it fit!!! He didn't have to use the extension!!! I was so excited about that, I think I smiled for a good 2 minutes ;) (I stopped when we started to work out....)

This week has been rough, emotions have run rampant and I look at myself and even though you can clearly see a difference, the pain of being overweight is still there. I know it is going to take time and I know I have a long way to go yet. Today after wearing the vest, I have realized how much I have done and how much I have changed, it was fun and hard, and I would do it again. The minute he took the vest off I felt so much lighter. It was crazy awesome.

Anyway, this seriously works and well. I love Bootcamp and instructor Thomas, and my awesome Bootcamp family who are all the most amazing people ever!!!

Have a great day,

A dream of blues

Day 3 of week 7

Another late post,

Today was good. Only three of us showed up. It was a tough workout, but not too bad. I am quite tired tonight though, so forgive me for the shortness of this blog.

Good nights,,

A dream of blues

P.s. what day is it??

Week 7 day 2

Week 7 day 2

New clothes!! I got some awesome boot camp sweats today, check them out!!

I have been truly blessed by Instructor Thomas and I owe him a LOT!! After 20+ years of not seeing him (seriously I was like 12 the last time I saw him) he has taken me under his care and has shown me so much love and kindness. I continue to learn and grow, I have found that he truly truly cares about all of his PT's. It feels like family all the time. It is so nice. Thank you Instructor Thomas! 

Endurance leg day today.....I swear that leg day comes so fast and I'm never ready for it. Still, I survived and It feels awesome!! Had to bring my daughter today, she was very well behaved and she told me on the way home, "Mom, I figured out why you are always so sweaty...it's because of Jesse, huh?!" Ha ha, yes sweetheart, it is!!!

Well today was good, I'm tired and I think bed sounds nice. Good night my dear dear friends!!

A dream of blues

P.s. I went to TOPS for the first time since February and lost 35.6 pounds (is it sad that 29 of them happened in the last 6.5 weeks?) OH! And did I mention I LOVE THESE AWESOME PEOPLE????