Sacrifice is hard. Being healthy is hard. Leaving the kids alone is hard. Losing weight is hard.
Two things. Number one, I'm going to school full time so I am gone in the evenings for 4-5 hours every evening but Friday. Making the decision to become a police officer is hard. It will take me away from home more and the kids are having a hard time with it. Even more, because I have decided to make myself healthy, I am now going to be going to boot camp in the mornings. They are not handling it very well tonight. I am hoping that through hard work and dedication that one day they will be able to see that it is worth all of the sacrifice. It breaks my heart.
Number two. I just signed up for Boot Camp With Jess! I am excited and scared. I got to go tonight and experience the gym and I got my butt handed to me on a silver platter. It was not pretty. I had a few breakdowns and I knew that I needed to do this. I know I am super overweight and I know that I am a big girl. The boot camp truly made me see it more than I ever have before.
I know that these sacrifices are hard and I look at them and hope that my kids do not resent me for the decisions I have made in my life. I hope that one day they will see that I only want what is best for them and I am learning that sometimes it is ok to want what is best for me.
Wish me luck!!!
I enjoy reading your blog and thank you for sharing your hopes and dreams. I know you can do it!
ReplyDeleteYou are amazing! I'm so excited see your transformation. Thanks for sharing your story.
ReplyDeleteYou are awesome and inspiring! Keep up the good work!
ReplyDeleteYou are such as inspiration to so many people! Keep going! I know you can do it!!!
ReplyDeleteYou are so awesome for doing this. You will feel so much better about yourself. Remember "Just Keep Swimming".
ReplyDeleteCorndog. You are fantastic and I absolutely KNOW you'll do it!! Added bonus, you can give me some much needed motivation! Love ya, girl!
ReplyDeleteYou can do it! You are a fabulous example of service and sacrifice... and your kids will understand. Just love them even more and they will be your biggest cheerleaders!
ReplyDeleteYay for my gorgeous fun loving friend Cynthia!!! You can and will rock this!! Boot Camp is a great idea. They push you out of your comfort zone and you will see progress. Be careful to not overdue it. Listen to you body when its a bad hurt. For example; We did hamstring "morning glories" in my boot camp. That exercise is suppost to work you hamstrings. Well the instructor put too much weight on for everyone. I knew when I felt it in my back that it would hurt my back. So I grabbed some dumb bells and finished the exercise. Also, measure and try on clothing to notice changes there. The scale is slow to recognize the changes in the body. That can be a real de-motivator if that's the only way your measuring your progress.
ReplyDeleteRooting for you and your health and you dreams and because, let's p\face it, you're just super awesome!!!!
Way to go Cynthia!!! I have a big dream of getting in shape (can't even run 1 block without stopping) and getting myself healthy, but it is SO hard to find the motivation - and take the time for myself. Great inspiration to us all!
ReplyDeleteYour kids may not understand it now. But you're showing them what it is to work hard and be dedicated. They'll thank you for your sacrifice when they're older and able to understand. Plus, getting healthy means being able to run around and keep up with them. You're doing yourself and your children a great service.
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