Hellweek day 2

Woke up this morning and my whole body hurt. Yes even my fingers and toes. My head and my heart started arguing and I wondered if I would be able to do this. Alas, I got up, got dressed, made my yummy screaming eagle egg sandwich and banana, and put my shoes on and walked out the door. I got in my car and turned on the radio. The song that was playing was Hall of Fame by Script. http://youtu.be/mk48xRzuNvA It was just the song I needed to hear to keep me going this morning.

Then I got to the gym. I was ready to go. Only had to do push-ups twice today. Did some interesting cadences on the treadmill. Then I had to do a kettlebell row, leg extensions and squats. It was hard. It hurt. The battle between my head and my heart began again.

My head kept saying "you can quit, it hurts, just give up!" My heart kept saying "don't give up! You got this! It's pain, but it's worth it! You can do this."

It is a constant battle within myself that is going to be a tough one to beat, but I refuse to give up fighting. I know this is what I need and I know I can do this. It's going to be hard, it's already hard. I mean come on, I did freaking squats with a 20 pound ball all the way across alpha/bravo gym and back. It hurt. My back was killing me, but I did it. I may have been near to tears (or actually in tears) by then, but I did it.

I just need to keep listening to my heart and I will make it. Three more days of Hellweek left. I can do this.

My life is changing and it is probably one of the hardest things I have ever tried to do in my life, but I'm going to keep fighting and win this war!

I'm telling you guys, the support you are giving me is helping. I know I wouldn't be doing this without all of you. Thank you for pushing me and encouraging me. I truly appreciate it.

A dream of blues