Hellweek day 5 graduation!

Well, I did it! I made it through one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. It was a very emotional week and it was hard to fight the negative thoughts, but I did it. Today was the last day in that 30 pound vest and in the rainy weather we reclaimed our lives. We had to march and say cadences, we had to run, we had to climb a hill and do squats and sit-ups and burpees. 

My body is killing me, but I learned some valuable things this week. I learned that it is okay to get angry. I learned that sometimes you need to get angry to get through hard things. I learned that support is important. I learned that even after 20+ years, family is still family. I learned that I can do this. I learned that eating healthy doesn't have to be hard. I learned that an extra 30 pounds is a lot of weight. I learned that it is ok to let things go. I learned that when someone is cheering you on, you work harder to accomplish something.

I left my old self behind when I climbed that mountain (not really a mountain, but it sure felt like one) today. I left behind the negative thoughts and I left behind thoughts of never being able to change. I left behind the thought that I will be this way forever. I left behind the I cants and the quitting. I left behind my old eating habits and exercise habits. I left behind the hate I had for letting myself get this way. I left behind the glares and comments about my weight from others that I have held on to for years.

I also gained things from this week as well!

I gained a boot camp family. I gained friends. I gained confidence in myself. I gained strength. I gained determination. I gained faith. I gained support from friends and family. I gained my life. I gained health. I gained a willingness to keep going. I gained far more than I could have imagined.

I am very glad I did this. It hurts, it is hard, it is emotionally and physically draining, and I am learning and growing. If you don't think you can do this, you are mistaken, because if I can do it, you can.

Thank you all for following along. I will continue to blog about boot camp as I continue on. I hope that you will gain something from my experiences. I hope that you will see the importance of my journey and continue to follow me and cheer me on. I so very much appreciate all the nice uplifting comments both on here and Facebook. They have helped me to push myself and want to do good.

Your friend

A dream of blues!